- 10:06 am - Tue, Apr 23, 2013
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This dress did not fit when I bought it in early March. Could still be a little less right around the bust area but it fits perfectly everywhere else. And omg - pockets! I love my body :)
Gonna run outside for reals today after work. It’ll be hard but I’m ready.
- 11:25 pm - Sat, Apr 20, 2013
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Exhausted, yet triumphant face of a gal who just ran for 10 minutes without stopping for the first time evar!! #c25k
I hate that I can’t set instagram up to post on my side blogs :(
- 8:46 am - Wed, Apr 17, 2013
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Despite 3.5 months of more-or-less consistent working out and eating pretty well, I have GAINED almost 20 pounds.
Well, this gain is more since August - and I finally put two and two together: August is when I started taking my anti-anxiety/depressant. I remember reading weight gain/difficulty losing as a potential side effect but I didn’t think it would matter if I was actively working toward losing… apparently, I was wrong. I’ve been beating myself up, but the truth of the matter is that I’d rather have my mental health sorted out and have a little extra weight on me vs. still being completely unable to function.
However, I’ve reached a point where I feel like I am in control of my anxiety and depression enough to transition off my meds. So that’s what I’ll be doing in the next few weeks - I have developed some great coping skills, and I’d like to put them to the test without medication helping my brain along. Much of my depression the last few years has manifested during the winter as SADD. I live in a super cloudy, dreary place with looooong winters. No sun = no bueno.
But as mentioned a few days ago on my personal tumblr, I will be moving to CALIFORNIA!!! in just over a month. I know the extra sun and warmth is going to help so much, but this is a leap I’ve been ready and waiting to make for a long time now. I’m moving in with my boyfriend, who is an incredible support system not only for my mental health but my physical - our apartment complex there has a fitness center, a pool and several parks nearby. He wants us to start working with personal trainers and eating clean. It’s going to be just lovely.
In the meantime, I’m going to stop being so hard on myself re: this gain. I’m determined to finish what I started and run that goddamn 5k. Gym tonight, hopefully running outside again later this week. If I don’t push, I will regret it - I know myself that well. And I know the 5k event will be a lot of fun and worth it, even if I can’t run the entire thing all the way through. I have plenty of time left in 2013 to accomplish my goal of running a 5k - San Jose has a ton of them throughout the year :)
Regardless of what the scale says, I love myself and I love my body. The confidence I have today is something I did not possess even a year ago - and that is definitely something to be proud of.
- 4:44 pm - Mon, Apr 15, 2013
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WestCoastRunner is safe and ok
I just texted with her. Has anyone talked to Rook?
Michelle is okay per Nicole.
I just got an automatic text update from Rook at 40k, so I assume he’s okay.
Thank God everyone is ok. Please reblog so everyone that’s worried can know.
Glad to know they are ok.
- 7:41 pm - Sun, Apr 7, 2013
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C25K: When the going gets tough…
I’ve learned a lot about myself since my first breathless attempt at running back at the end of December. I’ve learned I can push myself just a little further when I don’t think it’s possible. I’ve learned there’s a difference between workout music and running music. I’ve learned not to pay too close attention to Judge Judy lest I smack into the front of the treadmill and nearly become The Girl Who Fell Off the Treadmill (every indoor runner’s secret fear). And I’ve learned that sometimes, when it comes to your body, no means absolutely not.
I’ve been trying to get back into the groove of things. And it seems like I’ll have a couple of really great days, followed by a couple of really bad ones. I was doing well, extending into the sixth week of the C25K program when Monday brought something new and terribly distressing to the table: pain. Not just “omg this hurts staahhhhp” pain - no, legit pain emanating from my ankle up into my shin on the right side. I tried stretching longer and adding new stretches before running Wednesday, and that seemed to help a bit. But the pain was still there.
And yesterday, when I made my first attempt at 20 minutes of running… the pain came back and was so unbearably bad that I couldn’t even complete all 10 minutes together, nor could I finish the second 10 with a break inbetween as planned. Bahhh.
It’s entirely frustrating to want my body to do something and have it pretty much refuse. I want to run. I want to beat records and feel as great as I did a few weeks ago, but I feel weaker and tired all the time lately. I’ve started adding some strength training in, to help build my muscles a little more. Not sure if that’s helping or hurting. I’m making adjustments here and there, in hopes that maybe I can find the right combination and get back on track. Because my 5k is rapidly approaching and I had planned on being FINISHED with C25K by now.
And I still have 4 weeks of program left. I won’t give up, but I may have to concede that there will be a bit of walking in my first 5k attempt, whether I like it or not.
Tomorrow’s a new day and my hope is to have a fulfilling and successful run.
Fellow C25Kers: Have you hit any roadblocks during your training? How did you push past?